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Allie
Created on 2006-06-30 08:39:28 (#10564954), last updated 2007-05-29
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Basic Info| Name: | Allie Lawson |
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| Location: | West Village, New York, United States |
BioThe truth, if you want to know it, is I gave myself one more season. Three months. If I didn't find a reason in three months, I would fold.
One month in, he went first.
Since then I've been trying to figure out why these things happen. Why I ever felt this way, why he did-- and most of all, why I didn't get there first.
Or why, since his death, I haven't been able to gather the conviction to do it.
The truth, if you want to know it, is that it's been two months since he left. And still I don't feel like it's my time to go because I don't yet understand the reasons behind our decisions. It's something I want to know.
And maybe if I know, I won't want to do it.
Or at least I won't be scared anymore.
The truth, if you want to know it, is that I am sixteen and some, that I come from the East Village and my hair is a mess. My last girlfriend fled the country and I never really cared about her after I heard about what she did that made her leave but I can't stop thinking about it anyway. I can't stop thinking about her. And she is far away and not thinking about me.
My name is Alexander. But everyone calls me Allie.
One month in, he went first.
Since then I've been trying to figure out why these things happen. Why I ever felt this way, why he did-- and most of all, why I didn't get there first.
Or why, since his death, I haven't been able to gather the conviction to do it.
The truth, if you want to know it, is that it's been two months since he left. And still I don't feel like it's my time to go because I don't yet understand the reasons behind our decisions. It's something I want to know.
And maybe if I know, I won't want to do it.
Or at least I won't be scared anymore.
The truth, if you want to know it, is that I am sixteen and some, that I come from the East Village and my hair is a mess. My last girlfriend fled the country and I never really cared about her after I heard about what she did that made her leave but I can't stop thinking about it anyway. I can't stop thinking about her. And she is far away and not thinking about me.
My name is Alexander. But everyone calls me Allie.
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